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Thursday, September 25, 2008

Today is Thursday. A day has passed again. This morning i received a message. A status position is only for 1 person. The room can only hold 1 space. But is that person me? Even if you say yes, should i smile? In the past, when it is said to be me, i would always smile. But today, i had a different reaction towards it. I don't know whether i should smile. Instead, i feel even more sad.

Yesterday i could say was a very very bad day. Just felt like hiding. But don't know where to go to. There's this feeling which no one can understand. Cause maybe no one cares about it. Or ever experience my feelings.

Getting so sad over it, still means nothing in the end. What to do?

With the mouth, words comes out. But with your hands and legs your actions and movements is done thus affecting people even more. Because actions is done.

Sometimes, life has its up and downs it cannot be avoided understand? Haissh...

Anyway, i can't understand the minds of some children. Leaving your parents downstairs, only when you are happy then you buy food for her to eat. Not happy then don't buy causing her to go hungry. She's your mother u ungrateful kid. And she can be so sad, saying she wants to die. Old already, thus suffering!!!

WHY IS LIFE LIKE THAT?!?!?! All this suffering in life... AHH!!!!

Mood : HAISSH!!!!!!

Theme for today : 我只想哭一下下

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2:14 AM

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Today is Tuesday.... Haissh... My days are really as if i am living in a mixture of solution. I dunno why... Mixed any oh how... But what can i do?

Sometimes, you are suddenly like that, and next moment you are like that.
Sometimes, i just hope the night will always be continuous and never end.
Because i know when the sun rise, there will be something new that i will see and experience.

Sometimes, you can say its the overdose again. Or sometimes it can be the reason " Shi wo xiang tai duo " Haissh.... But all this is fated. There's nothing i can do to change a person, or the fact that is coming my way.

A old can say she feels like dying, but why does she feel like dying? Why is there all this suffering that humans have to go through? Why can't the old die with a smile on their face. Not only the old, but also the young and even younger ones?

Sadness.....

Life.....

Mood : Mixed =(

Theme for today : If we hold on together, i know our dreams will never die....

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5:53 AM

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Didn't post for awhile... But what should i say for the days that had already past? Truely, everyday time just passes with maybe a smile on my face on the outside, but cries and sadness on the inside. I guess no one understands the feeling of it.

Geting sick of something, means to not want it anymore? When i heard this, really i don't know what to respond, maybe i can say i am dumbfounded. But what to do , like a rubbish i feel, inside the bin and never appear again.

Sometimes, the overdose of the dumplings really kills me. Because i get angry and thus do things that i don't wish to do. But sometimes, overdose is something u cannot avoid. I dunno how come also. But it is just....Haissh....

Alright, don't wish to continue....

Mood : Sad = (

Theme for today : Haissh...

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4:11 AM

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It has been really long since i last blog. But don't worry this blog didn't die...

Anyway, things this few days really Sometimes i don't know what to say about it...

Gotten back my prelim results... Didn't manage to pass many. But got to pass my F&N and thank you so much for ur help! Even though i didn't pass my Science and other subjects but i can say indeed i have improve so much!

For my English, what should i say.... Am i really that dumb? Haissh..... =(

So on thursday and friday i had to go study skills because it was made complusory for me. Yupz... Went alone... But it's ok... Gotten to more stuff about life out there. And thinking of it... really it's quite scary... But what to do, this is life! Die die also must live it...

The last day the course ended at 6.30 and my friends waited for me... Thank you guys... So sorry to agnes for having to miss her tuition...

Haissh.....What should i say to describe life.... It's so unpredictable.. Don't u think so?

When you hope for something, it doesn't come no matter what, And when you don't want something it just have to come....Haissh.....

Should i call myself a pest? Or a trouble maker? Cos i feel that i am one... Always stirring up trouble... Don't wish it to happen either but it's because of my stupid actions and words that have it to happen. Haissh....

Anyway, for yesterday went tuition, and went to eat lunch with Candice. Thanks for the noodles. Then she went off, with me going home... In the night i had a surprise or should i say a VERY big surprise... But in the end it turned out to be 一场欢喜一场空...

Haissh... This morning woke up at 5.30 looked at the clock and sign.... 6.00 o'clock wake up again and sign again.. Nuts i think i am nuts... Anyway, tried again. Woke up at 7.30... this time i sign again... Then went to the bus stop and waited...and sign... then went to the market and bought food.... and went grandma house... and then home... Sign....Haissh...

Then Candice called...want to tell you this, "It's ok" though i am like signing all day...it's ok ya? haha...in the afternoon learnt merger and separation from Candice, GREAT LESSON LEARNT! haha... Yupz...

Will tmr be like today? Will it all restart? Haissh... Even if it does, it's ok....

Mood : Happy Sad =) =(

Theme for today : IT'S OKAY!

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3:37 AM

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I had a wonderful and memorable day today.....

Haissh....

Mood : =(

Theme for today : No matter how much

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5:40 AM

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This morning i woke up at 10.30. Very late indeed. But i woke up in tears and i can't believe it. Last night i had a very very very very extremely extremely terrible dream. ( Shall not disclose it ) I hope it does not come true, because it's so terrible that i am so sad. So So sad! Haissh...

If i am unable to understand, then what it the point?
Haissh.... Haissh........ Haissh..........
Am i an xtra?

Finally finish Russia last night at 2.05 am
I shall do a little of Bio today. Do what i am suppose to do..

Mood : Sad... Very sad....

Theme for today : Treasure the day you have, once gone, no matter how hard you cry it will never come back...

*( Sorry big must have scare u badly this morning) *

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8:23 PM

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Hello.....Yesterday night in the end i went with them to Jurong () haha...but didn't really talk much else a fee of $5 will be charge. But at the end while going back we took pictures together and really it was very fun! Thank you guys for helping me find the stuffs in NTUC! Thank you so much for those who went around searching!!! Thank you! Yesterday night i had a sad friend...But why is that friend of mine sad? I also dunno...

Just got to say don't be sad. Now i shall use a pen to draw a wide smile on your face so friend please cheer up and smile! =D

Alright i am going out soon. Come post another time...

Today i will go without a phone.. Hmmm anyway, Jiayou everyone!

Alicia jiayou for your art! yes? GOGO JIAYOU!

Mood : Mixed

Theme for today : Strong on the outside but what's on the inside? Haissh....

"A smile on the face makes the world go round!" =D

Give your widest smile and there will laughter and joy!

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8:28 PM

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Wow.. Can't imagine this is my 50th post alr. Haha... Hmm... This morning went school to take history book...Vic went school to take exam paper and Alicia went school for Art. Then i left school around 10. Yupz...Went my grandma house...And now starting to do History...

Alright...Jus did some photo adjustments for the photos we taken...Is my art nice? I doubt so...Agnes, Alicia and Candice going out. To Clementi central then to ABC then to JP. ( Hope you guys enjoy your evening!) ( Take more pics to keep and Candice will have more pics of Alicia and Agnes...) Haha...

Hmm...from now i will be just doing history and history. Who knows after i finished, i can be a historian? Hmmm....hope i finish by today... Really hope! JIAYOU zhenjun!

Alright got to end here. Byebye =D

Mood : Stress!!! =S

THeme for today : Transparent is a good thing! =D

I think maybe i will be continuing my posting but anytime i will stop. Yupz... Hmmm... At least there's something for my regular readers to read.. =D

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12:58 AM

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